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I always hated jogging and any other kind of running but since I have to do it now on a regular basis, it's not so bad at all. I'm not a very sportive person but since I noticed that I really improved and that I'm not out of breath after a few meters now, it's really nice sometimes. I also lost some weight, that's nice too. I just hope my motivation keeps up like this.

I'm so sorry to hear that you are sick. I hope it will get better soon.

Hoping with you!

Did you start the usual way? Like "2 minutes jogging, 1 minute walking, 4 minutes jogging, 1/2 walking, 10 minutes jogging etc." or did you start like.. "30 minutes and no break! NOW!"?

Oh, don't talk about weight loss, fucking new meds, I feel like an elephant! xD And here I had an eating disorder. Stupid doc, could've warned me about that.. Meh! Well, I'm gonna live, soo it's okay.

Might start doing some crunches again, then jogging, then whatever. Jesus, I once kicked ass like Buffy. Well, no, not like Buffy. But like one of the Potentials. Well, no.. but.. um.. Whatever xDD

My cheerteam cheers at events like marathons (next one´s the Big 25 in the olympic stadium in berlin btw) and I´m always looking at that red-faced-almost-dead people and think: " I´m a lazy a**"
I have lots of respect for those crazy people, so keep on training Serena

I started training in january, and yes, I started the usual way. I even went to the physician to check if I was okay. I kicked ass too. I went boxing during my teen years... my gosh, I'm talking like I'm an old granny, I'm only 22.

I will! Now that I got into it I'm too ambitious to give up.

Oh my, you really make me want to start getting physical again! Good luck with your marathon-thing. I'd never make it. 18? Whatever, call my Grams. :]

I've got some time to train, the marathon is in October. Well, I won't an award but it's not about that anyway. I need to prove that I can do it. To myself and to win a stupid bet. And for the charity of course

Ugh, marathons. I feel like I should want to do one... but I don't see it happening. I was into soccer/football fanatically in school so I did a fair amount of running. However, I drove the coaches nuts because I was a "lazy runner" - I'd sprint at the last minute. I got the job done but gave the coaches heart attacks at the same time

Patricia -

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I'm feeling .. weird right now. Dunno why. That sucks. I think I need something to do. Wednesday therapy again. Bah. T.T

I'm feeling weird too. Sort of melancholic. Dunno why. Maybe it's the weather. It was wonderful springy weather over the weekend. But today, it was dull and grey. I'm not very good at handling bad weather sometimes.

Melancholic, too. But I'm feeling melancholic all the time (I mean, that's what major depressions do to you, after all :'D). Might be the weather, true. Although I like the rain much more than the 32°C. Hmm.. :')

Might be that I was melancholic before and the weather just made it worse. Today, it's sunny again and I feel much better. After the long, cold winter I need my share of Vitamin D. I don't particularly need 32°C either, only when I'm free to go swimming.

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Okay, chastity-belts and Virgin-sacrifices xD And Sissi!

Sarah18, sorry about your father. Mine didn't live with us at all.. well not since I was a couple of months old at least and he does speak German, but still.. Meh. Silence has been our childhood, yay. Sascha got competition..

My father died when I was 15. So we all seem to have some father-related problems...

Daddy issues³

I'm sorry about your father. Have you been close?

If a silent childhood means to end up with a hottie, I´m totally happy with my life

But my mother means everything to me... Tattoed her on my ankle, now my foot has a reason for existing... Feet are my less favorite part of the human body

Yes, very. We were of those families where everything worked out fine. Well, we still are. The saying is true in a sense, time can mend many wounds. Not fully, but they do get better.

I also don't like my own feet. They look funny.

So sorry for you Serena... Afraid that my grandparents leave some time soon... Lose them or one of them... Don´t know how to go on without them, they always make me smile when I´m down

Drama, drama- let´s talk about sacrifices xD We need blood, right? Never donated mine, so it´s still innocent

Feet. I hate feet. I do like the scenes in the book, because they are funny, but seriously, feet? And wtf, your's look "funny"? xD

Sarah, cannot agree more with you. Okay, no, I'd like to have everything. A DAD, my mommy and a hot guy, but the latter two are okay, too. Till now the only thing I got were major depressions and an eating disorder, but hey, things can change.. Hottie, where are you? xD

My mom's everything to me, too. Her birthday was on Tuesday.

Oh That's sad. My family is.. well, we have problems. My mom and me, were like best friends. But the rest? Not so much. In the end they don't matter and everything works out just fine except that I have those issues and my mom got um, what's it called? not cancer, in German it's Hirntumore. Well, it's not like it's easy, but we love eachother and I won't ask for more right now
But if you love someone and it really works, I can only imagine the pain

That's the one thing you learn from such experiences: That you have the strength to survive such losses and go on.
Now, when something bad happens, I know I can live through it and I won't let me wear down.

Jesus Christ, Patricia you really ordered the full package. Always happens to the wrong people in my opinion...

Yeah, makes you definitely stronger in more than one way... but why has it to be so complicated??

My ipod´s now playing Pink and F*ckin Perfect... It´s a mood tracker, always knew it

That sounds tough. I really adore such strength.
If you lose someone that important to you.. I don't know if I could.. hm. I hope nothing like that happens to you again so you don't have to use what you learned.


Oh and Sarah, can you gimme you're email adress? Might have a surprise!

SarahWenzel1809@web.de

Uh, I love surprises

Sarah, naah. I can handle those little cracks in my head, although I really doubt my therapist can. She's always looking rather confused and pained when I'm done talking Poor woman. No, just joking. She's okay and not pained.

My iTunes playing "Misguided Ghosts" (I'm going away for a while, but I'll be back don't try to follow me. Cause I'll return as soon as possible. See, I'm trying to find my place, but it might not be here where I feel safe. We all learn to make mistakes. And run from them, with no direction. Run from them with no conviction. Cause I'm just one of those ghosts. Traveling endlessly. Don't need no roads. In fact they follow me. And we just go in circles.| And now I'm told that this is life. The pain is just a simple compromise (..) -- Really like that song.) and before that there was "Playing God" (I know you don't believe me, but the way I see it: Next time you point your finger I might bend it back and break it off. Next time you point your finger. I point you to the mirror.) Oh and now "Don't let me fall" (It was just a dream. Just a moment ago. I was up so high, looking down at the sky, they say what goes up, must come down. But don't let me fall. I was shooting for stars on a saturday night ..)